Happy birthday to me. (and my mom.)

I got my mom a Sony DVD player for her birthday and wrote her a letter expressing my thanks to her. It's pretty sappy. I really love my mom, she's helped me through so much.

I love my dad and miss him so much. I wish he were here in physical to see me succeed. I know he can see me somehow. Not through that heaven BS, but.. somehow.

I Can't Handle This

I'm so tired of this doctor back and forth bullshit.

I used to be scared of asking for pain medication. Then I talked to the nurse and she told me I shouldn't be, because I have a legitimate reason to want them. So I do, and I take the right dosage and everything and I call to ask for more and they tell me that I am taking them too much. They gave me 40 pills and I took all of them in 15 days. that's like 2 or 3 a day, and it says to take them every 6 to 8 hours.. How am I taking them too much?

God I'm so tired of being made to feel guilty about my health problems. It's not fair enough I have them but jesus!

They give any drug they want to people with supposed "back problems", but when I need them for my legitimate and proven illnesses, they don't do anything.

One Year Anniversary

So it's been one year with Sean. A very very happy year. One of the happiest and less-stressful years I've ever had.:)

We didn't do much this weekend.. Just stayed inside, away from the sun and hung out.

I had to take the chemo this morning so I can't go to our usual Monday Halo Nights... I really hate missing it, because I love to play with a big group. I get to take the 'antidote' in another four hours, hopefully it will make me feel a lot better.

I guess I don't have much to say.