Valentines Day

On Monday, the 13th, I went to have my weekly needle poke and switch up with the ol' doc-a-roo. I'm having a Lupus flare, you can tell from the amount of pain I've been in constantly, and the massive rash on my face. I have these tiny inflamed bumps on my cheeks, nose and chin. It gets really itchy sometimes, and makes my face really flushed. A famous record producer just died from Lupus.

Anyway, the doctor told me that he is going to start focusing his attention more on the Lupus, rather than the RA, since it's clear I'm having a flare. I'm also starting a new medication called Plaquenil that is widely used for Malaria, but also RA and Lupus. So, hopefully things will start to look up. It is't supposed to even start working for at least a month though. At least one more month of feeling like shit and taking it easy. My joints have been hurting so bad I haven't really been able to crochet or play video games much.

On Valentines Day, Sean got up and went to work, and I stayed in bed because the side effects from the steroids were really bothering me. Then he showed up with an awesome snack grab bag: 2 hours later with a rose, a Mountain Dew, a Pepsi, a bag of Kettle chips, Tootsie Pops and a Milkyway Midnight. Then we just laid around watching Mr. Show. It was awesome.

Mystery Rash.

God damn, this rash is driving me nuts! Itchy, Itchy Itchy!!

I'm addicted to writing in this journal.

I think this isn't a bad thing at all. I write about what's on my mind in a neat little book and it's kind of therapeutic - and I definitely need therapy. I never really seem to keep up with journals because of my paranoia thing. Somehow my brain gets wrapped up in some neurotic idea that someone is going to read all of my thoughts and doings and use it against me. Deep down I know nobody cares.

Tomorrow is my first doctor's appointment in a long time. Not because the doctor told me I could live life for a couple months, but because I'm a bad girl and skipped my last appointment, then didn't bother making a new one.That place makes me feel so much worse than I already do.

I figured I should finally do it. My back has been hurting and I have a 'heat rash'. I've gained a lot of weight and have tried doing eight minute tae-bo, but it's way too difficult for me. My balance is really bad and I'm not that strong. It's a very hard workout.