Just some thoughts

looking back, my senior year of high school was the hardest i'd experienced in my seventeen years. but at the time, it didn't completely make me collapse. i think that it was some subconcious mechanism in my brain, trying to protect me from the hardships to come.

in grade school, i excelled in reading and most other studies. but, as with most kids, middle school was a bit of a shock. i have a hard time remembering seventh and eighth grade, even though i didn't drink or do drugs or anything like that. i was a good kid, but i had a troubled family life. i went to one school for seventh grade, and moved again just before eighth grade.

at home, i was the only-child of a single mother who worked as a bartender trying to make ends meet. even though my parents were never married and broke up a year after i was born, they remained friends. my dad was a severe alcoholic, and during middle school, he lived with my mom and i. most of the time, he was so drunk he was more like an irritating sibling than a father. i'd been dealing with his alcoholism for a long time and I knew (for the most part) how to handle it.

at school, most of the kids knew eachother because they had the advantage of going to the same grade school together. i didn't, which meant i didn't have any friends. and nobody wanted to get to know the sickly girl with a lisp. and while my grades were great in grade school, they dropped dramatically in middle.

Goals + Worries

x. call Spokane Family Health (?) about getting a general practicioner. Must accept DSHS insurance. Also ask if possible to get a woman's exam there.

x. find a physical therapist on the south hill who is accepting new adult patients with DSHS insurance.

x. find an eye doctor on the south hill who is accepting new adult patients with DSHS insurance.

x. find a dentist on the south hill who is accepting new adult patients with DSHS insurance.

about a week ago i realized i had a small swollen lymphnode behind my left ear. it was sore for less than a day, the it went down. i've been checking it periodically, since then. today, i discovered it was back, slightly larger than before and much more sore. thankfully i'm seeing the doctor on march 1st.

also - my mom called and filled my pain pill prescription. dr. kenney's office did it in a hurry. it made me smile that they actually seem to take it seriously, unlike dr. reynolds.