Craziness.

So I've been an emotional and internal wreck since the things Emily said to me. I hate myself right now and I hope she's pleased.

I'm so terrified. Sean is asleep next to me and I'm crying. I am scared of the chemo, dying, not being a good friend, my parents and family hating me. I want to talk to someone about what I'm going through without being afraid of being too focused on myself.