I'm so tired of being broke.

Somehow I have coellected about $25 in my bank account, just from my mom putting money in, paying bills, etc, and it just collecting and adding up to that much. So I am VERY excited to have money to spend on my Marla Singer costume for the party tomorrow. Well. I lost my ID and I have to go to a bar on Saturday so there's $15 of my $25 that I have to spend elsewhere. $10 isn't going to get me a costume.

I'm so frustrated. I can't ever do anything nice for myself. Because I don't ever have money Because I am sick and disability doesn't care about me, and cares more about ALCOHOLICS than about someone with two autoimmune diseases that are CONSTANTLY eating away at my body.

Disability Response

Keep in mind it's supposed to take three to six months to get a response. They received my information on 9/22. I got my response today. Less than a month for a decision. LOVELY.

"We have determined that your condition is not severe enough to keep you from working. We considered the medical and other information, your age, education, training and work experience in determining how your condition affects your ability to work.

You state you are disabled due to fatigue from chemotherapy treatment. The medical evidence indicates you have had a flare in symptoms in 2005 for Evans Syndrome and are receiving treatment. You receive pain medications for complaints of various joint pain. The medical evidence indicates you are limited to performing tasks where you lift very light objects and where you are able to sit a majority of the day with regular break periods to adjust position. Although you have not worked significant, based on the medical/vocational evidence you are determined capable of performing work within the national economy that is within your limitations. Therefore, a period of disability cannot be determined."

What the fuck? They don't even MENTION the RA, and they say I'm receiving treatment for EVANS right now, when I'm NOT. I'm receiving treatment for RA. Do they not know how to read, or what?

It's just frustrating that people with legitimate disabilities get denied and have to try over and over and over and over again to get a little help.

Meds List

These are the medications I'm taking and for what.

Methotrexate - I'm taking anywhere from 15mg to 25mg a week of this chemo to help my Rheumatoid Arthritis. It make me dizzy for a short period of time, makes me nauseas / no appetite, tired, weak.
Prednisone - 10mg a day. This is a steroid. For most people it suppresses your immune system, but since my immune system attacks itself, it helps my immune system. It also helps with inflammation of my joints. The side effects are horrible though. It helps me eat, which is a nice reversal from the Methotrexate, but it also makes me gain a lot of weight. I'm up to 153 now, and my usual weight is pretty evenly 137. This is in a span of two months.. It also gives you what is referred to as 'moon face'.. Have you seen Jerry Lewis lately? Yeah. He took a LOT of pred. It also makes it difficult to sleep, and it's beginning to make me really antisocial, lonely, paranoid, and just generally annoyed at people - which really sucks. Usually I love going to Halo night, but last night I was just uncomfortable and annoyed.
Oxycodone - 5mg, twice daily. I usually cut the pills in half and take them 4 times a day instead, though. Which - the doctor would kill me if he knew I did that, but the pills just don't last long enough to help with the pain. If I take a whole one it lasts like 3 hours, then what do I do for pain the rest of the day?
Seasonale - birth control.

For awhile I was also taking Sudafed because I was sick.. Bleh.