My future and my love.

Yesterday at my doctors appointment he informed me that on July 21st I'm going to start six months of chemotherapy called Cytoxan. My hair will fall out, and my immune system suppressed for that long as well.

I'm scared and I know that losing my hair is going to be a ton more traumatizing when it actually starts to happen..

My point is that.. The next six to eight months are definitely going to be hard.. Maybe harder than anything I've ever been through, but I am happy with the fact that I'll have Sean there to hold my hand and listen when I'm angry and frustrated and sad and in the Why Me? mood. He's done an amazing job the last two years, and I don't doubt he will this time.