Is it normal

for people with Fibromyalgia and chronic health conditions to be really anxious and stressed out by their families?

I don't see them very often. After I moved in with Sean, since I don't have transportation, the only times I see my mom are when I need a ride to the doctor. She does it on her day off, and claims to understand that I desperatley need help and says that it's not a big deal.. But then she acts agitated if I ask her to run me by one more place, or if the waiting room time is really long. She says things like 'It's okay, but my whole entire day off is gone.' And I feel saying that I'm really sorry I'm such an inconvenience. But when I -do- say that, she acts as if it's a completely absurd notion to even think of. Yet everything she does, tells me she is burdened and annoyed by me. Same with the rest of the family. They don't seem to realize how ill I truly am, seem to blow it off or downplay it. They don't consider how easily affected I am by stress. They don't realize that the things they say to me most of the time, really hurt my feelings. I cry almost every time I see any of them. Often times I have panic attacks after it.

It's immensely frustrating to be having anxiety attacks and worrying all the time, but where am I to go to get help for it? No counselor will accept me because of my lack of insurance and I have absolutely no way to pay for it. I'm at the end of my rope, I'm so anxious and I desperatley need some sort of help with it. If anybody has any suggestions as to what I can do to get me SOMETHING that will help with anxiety. Where do I go? (And please, don't say meditation. Because I try it, and this anxiety is on a completely different level. While focused breathing and meditation helps for small anxieties, it does no good when I'm having a panic attack.)

I'm so stuck.

I saw SICKO and it made me feel even more hopeless and stuck.