I'm so worried about medical next year.

How am I supposed to live on $400 a month, IF I GET SSI. I'm going to be forced to be a child for the rest of whatever time I have left.

"Evan's Syndrome is serious, rare and has an 18% mortality rate."

I'm never going to be able to buy my own clothes or groceries or anything! I won't be able to live on my own. I really feel like I just bring everybody down. I don't know why anybody even wastes their time, sometimes.

I want to just give up caring or expecting or anticipating anything. I just get disappointed or disappoint.

Sorry I'm such a pain in the ass.